My days are disappearing - day 18 and 19

Can I just make a point before we get started?
We’ve met an incredible amount of generous people along the way so far and we’ve met a handful of uptight, unreasonable, unnecessarily not nice people too!
The generous people have got it great, they’ve clearly had something happen to them in their life to teach them what goes around comes around. You get out of life what you put into it, three times fold. Or at least, that’s what I believe anyway!
The meanies clearly don’t have the advantage of a little feeling called empathy. It can really put a dampener on your day or two if a meany pops up!
We’ve had a gentleman wearing purple socks stop twice to give us £1, several flashes from big lorries, several thumbs up from cars/vans. The good times far outweigh the bad, but the bad can sure as hell bring you down.
It poured it down today. I got a text from Nat with a picture attached that one of his pupils drew for us. It had Dave on a skateboard. I CAN’T BELIEVE HOW GOOD IT IS. She’s even got the shading on the face in and everything. For a girl of 6/7 she’s a talented gal. Well done Emma! You cheered me up! Thankyou.
Dave’s foot is getting worse and worse and each day is getting harder and harder. I’m upset that I can’t help him. He now needs to make the decision about what to do about his exhaustion. It’s caused by pain. So it’s not as if he’s tired from being unfit. It’s all his blisters on the ball of his foot that are causing him to be in so much agony.
It’s so difficult to see. Cringing for him whenever he knocks his foot.

Day 19…
I woke up, just coming out of a dream and thought ‘here we go again, another day of watching Dave hurt’. I slept on the floor of a b+b happily. My back needed it. The driving is starting to make my back ache in places that’ve never ached before!
After forcing myself to get up at 7.45 for breakfast I sat down for a minute to contemplate my feelings today. I felt sick already. I just can’t get away from it! Someone told me it could be caused by being stressed. They’re probably right. I’m nervous all the time that Dave’s going to collapse because of the overwhelming pain and I’ve got to take him to hospital and everyone blames me for not stopping him. But it’s not my place to do so! I can put forward suggestions about what to do and let him consider stuff but to tell him what to do is definitely a no no!
Today is a possible rest day.
I washed his socks last night, they don’t look clean but they do smell clean! The heating wasn’t on last night though so they’re still cold and damp. Not nice.
I saw Dave limp out of the toilet this morning. Hmmmm. Limpy mclimperson!
What to do what to do. So many dilemmas, so many situations!

I got my big steering wheel fitted yesterday too! It makes turning so much easier! Thanks to that garage in Hodnet! Very grateful! And thanks to Dave and Gordon again, for bringing it out to me.

Will update as and when something new happens….seeing as it’s only 9.25am now!

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