Day three blues

Are you sick of hearing from me yet? Are ya? Are ya?
It's only because I've got nothing better to be doing inbetween flogging stuff on eBay and the gym. Joyousness!!!!!!

Well yesterday was day three lesson. Nat set up one of his boards for me because sooner or later I'm going to have to give that nice longboard back. So I jumped onto his board and fell off almost straight away. Ha! He tightened the trucks for me so it didn't feel as wobbly and felt more like a long board but still I felt uncomfortable. I was fine on the longboard and had gotten into it but now I felt like I'd taken about two steps backwards with my progress. I had a skate up and down up and down up and down. Not only was I not confident but I was getting bored. Nat kept jumping on his slalom and wiggling his way up and down. He makes it look so easy. I felt like a prat not knowing what I was doing. I skated up the road and turned round as my eyes started to well up. How frustrating. This is my main problem in life. I'm not sure where this nature of mine has come from but I hate it. I can't handle it if I'm bad at something. If I'm bad at something I'll want to give up straight away. Even more so if someone I know is teaching it me and keeps doing it WELL in front of me! A tear nearly dropped onto my cheek and I heard someone shout, 'are you ok?'. I looked up, cleared my eyes and turned round to see Nat doing slalom, yet abloodygain!!! I'm the same when it comes to anything. I know the only way to get better at something is to practice but I'm at that point inbetween where I can get on a board, push and that's all I can do for now until I get really good at it. But boy is that mind numbing after a while! I love the feeling of gliding round but I hate not being able to do anything else!
I sat on the board with my legs crossed watching Nat skate and told him I was in the giving up mood. I knew that if I was in that kind of mood I wouldn't want to skate so we should go home. So that's what we did.
Tomorrow I'm going skating again, so hopefully, I'll have more of a positive outlook on it. Maybe take my phone to listen to some quality music.
Wish me luck!!!